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Like any other evening, my best friend and I hopped on League to play some blinds. We're both nearing our 30s so we're not taking this game as seriously anymore. We just want to pop off for a game or two on our mains and call it a night.

For reference, I'm around high Gold/low Plat level (depending on seasons) and my friend is consistently Diamond. This means that we are usually matched with and against people who know the basics of this game.

Enter this person who instalocks Varus with Teleport and Heal. Given that it was a blind, we didn't think much of it. Maybe he had some secret dark tech. Who knows. After all, I run stuff like HoB J4 and Xin bot lane all the time. The benefit of the doubt should always be given (for a blind).

But this Varus proceeds to die as early as 1:45 minutes in the game. He walked through the minion wave to hit the Alistar (drawing minion aggro) and promptly got 100-0ed. He then TPed back in and attempted to make the same "play" again. The outcome did not change.

My friend typed: "Are you a bot?"

He replied: "Sorry, it's been a while."

The feeding continued for the rest of the game. By 15 minutes, he was 0/7 with 33 cs. He was effectively un-carriable. It was worse than a 4v5. He was a walking gold sack that did no damage.

I didn't say anything this whole time. But I did glance at the game timer every five seconds, desperate to leave the game ASAP and steer far, far away from someone of his caliber. We finally managed to surrender at 20 minutes.

Contemptuously, I decided to look him up on OP.GG. Indeed, how is it possible that anybody can be so bad? Was he griefing on purpose? Was he letting his little sibling play? I needed an explanation.

What I've uncovered beset me with profound sadness.

For as long as his match history goes, this guy has only played Varus, with the same combination of summoner spells, against bots. Of course, he would stomp them.

Our game was the only game he played against actual humans in a month.

Essentially, this man has been honing his Varus against bots, too scared to play his champ against real humans. Only after a month did he finally gather enough courage to bring his main in a real game... just to get dumpstered in the most humiliating fashion possible.

This game probably meant a lot for him, even though it meant nothing for us. I got 14 kills on Lethal Tempo J4 the next game building Trinity Force and Death's Dance. I got to go to bed having achieved my late-game fantasy on my favorite champ.

But for him? This game confirmed his suspicions: playing against real people is scary and never fun. He is most likely never going to play a real game anytime soon. In fact, he has only played a single bot game after this one and has been inactive since.

I guess I just feel remorse for my apathy. I feel bad for judging his personal worth solely based on his LoL play. Above all, I feel bad for being part of an experience that may possibly turn him away from this wonderful game forever.

I've since added him on my friend list, hoping that he would log on one day.

I'd like to apologize to him for this terrible experience and maybe even explore the practice tool with him. Teach him the basics. Even if he caps out at a Bronze level, he'd be "good" enough to enjoy the game as it is intended.

/End league diary.

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over 4 years ago - /u/RiotRanma - Direct link

That was sad to read, but thanks for sharing - I think it's important for us to remember that there's always someone on the other side of the screen. As an anecdote, I have terrible ladder anxiety. I always hated playing competitive games, and I hate even more letting my team down. When I started playing ranked in VALORANT, I always tried to hide and play super safe, not wanting to die first and 'throw' the round for my team. I'm glad to have a few great friends that offer positive encouragement, otherwise I'm not sure that I would have the gall to continue playing online versus games, truth be told. Every word of encouragement goes a long way, even if it feels cheesy. Thanks for trying to encourage the community to be better, I personally really appreciate it.

over 4 years ago - /u/RiotRanma - Direct link

Originally posted by unbeliever87

Nice to see another Ranma 1/2 fan!

one of the first mangas I've read! Unluckily, its not an easy IGN to secure lol

over 4 years ago - /u/RiotRanma - Direct link

Originally posted by [deleted]

If you are so scared by the ladder and constantly fear about letting your team down, do you even enjoy competitive versus games? And if so why? It reads like a single player or coop game would fit you better.

Yeah this is a good question. I can't really explain it well, nor do I know why it happens. I just get sorta jittery and nervous whenever I start playing ranked. After a bit it usually gets better though.

It seems its not even limited to team games. Even when I used to play StarCraft2, I would get really anxious playing ladder. Despite hitting diamond in 1v1, I absolutely hated laddering and only did it because all my friends did it. I guess I'm just anxious about competition? It's pretty strange to me too haha

over 4 years ago - /u/RiotRanma - Direct link

Originally posted by Permahexxed

I created a Reddit account finally, solely to respond to this. I agree wholeheartedly. The issue with this is not that the Varus learned wrong and bots need to be changed, it's the assumptions of a rather judgemental gaming community that were the problem.

Incidents like this is why I quit Overwatch; quit summoner's rift altogether; and why upon reaching max level in Neverwinter, I quit and uninstalled promptly after my first end game dungeon. The issue are the players that frankly need to feel superior to others. The ones who only feel content when they have something (even something intangible) to hold over others.

In league I will only play arams now (started playing the week between Voli and Fiora release). All my friends have quit league totally. In one friend's case it's the money grabs from a corporation(he hates Blizzard and WOTC for the same thing), for the others it's been the community.

Hell most of the games I play now are either single player, or with friends only.... Even games like Among Us where winning means literally nothing are ruined by people who feel the need to make it more than a competition(they have to find a way to turn it aggressive).

Oh yeah for sure. As I get a bit older I find that my tolerance for what I have to 'overcome' to have fun in a game gets lower and lower. If the community looks too toxic or the game looks too grindy, I just don't bother anymore.

over 4 years ago - /u/RiotRanma - Direct link

Originally posted by supersheeep

Dont be the last guy in r6 they will kick you so fast

haha don't worry, I overcame that fear and I find that I do a lot better when not playing scared.