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I want to start this post by saying I'm 37 and have been playing games all my life. I've considered myself a gamer since the age of 5 and have harboured a 'healthy' gaming addiction throughout the years. Street fighter, killer instinct, diablo, quake, quake3 , counterstrike, total war, battlefield, you name it.
Now there have been various points in my life were games were just getting in the way of normal life. Counterstrike 1.1-1.6 being a notable one throughout my high-school years. It basically SINGLE-handedly facilitated my downwards educational spiral as a teenager.
But nothing comes close to Rust.... absolutely NOTHING
I've been self employed the past 10 years, I work from home in IT. This basically means I sit behind my computer most days working and have more than enough opportunities to skimp off and game for a few hours here and there. Up until now it hasn't effected my social life, income or work. I thought I was too old to become addicted to a computer game again. I thought my real life was too important. Damn, I've never been so wrong.
Like most I randomly bought Rust one evening 3 months ago after watching a welyn video.... The past months have been a whirlwind of fantastic gaming experiences coupled with a complete breakdown of any kind of personal discipline I had. I haven't slept 'well' in months too. I dream about rust, I watch videos about rust, I got my RL friends into rust. Some of them are now also f*cked and trying to quit. It feels like I handed out heroin at an AA meeting.
I've cancelled social events to stay home and mine sulfur. I've been on dates with girls and made up excuses to not bring them back home because I knew my friends were playing and I could get in another few hours before I went to sleep. I've skipped work meetings, work obligations, left email unread for days. All because of a f*cking game.
Now the problem isn't Rust obviously. I've always known I've had some kind of 'addiction' to games. It just feels like all my life I was smoking weed, and rust is meth, crack or heroine.
RUST IS JUST A f*ckING PERFECT GAME. In my 33 years of gaming I've never encountered something that brings together so many elements into one game. You have the building aspects from minecraft, the "one more turn" feeling from total war, the heart pounding combat akin to counterstrike and then the politics, iq plays, the ruthlessness, the struggle. I'm preaching to the converted here, you all know what I mean.
Sometimes I wish I had a normal 9-5 job and wasn't self employed. At least I would have to go out in the morning, it would force me to go to sleep. the past weeks I've gone to bed at 6am everyday, I wake up at around 1pm and then start mining and maybe working a bit alt-tabbed in between mining runs. I only notice my real life hunger when I start to get hungry in rust. f*ck this. It's taking over my life.
Today I uninstalled Rust. I know at some point I will of course return. But I wanted to make this this thread to talk seriously about rust addiction. If there is 1 game that has the possibility of ruining your life, Rust is one of them. And please don't misunderstand me, in no way am I sh*t-talking rust. If anything this is a testament to how damn good of a game it is. It's just too good for me at the moment. I really can't control myself.
I can control drinking, weed, everything else in life. Except rust :(
Anyone have similar stories? How do you guys deal with it? Is there anyone that actually just casually plays this for 1/2 hours everyday? It's would be easier for me just to stop alltogether than to only play 1-2 hours :D
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