[2019] Because of division, i am still here today

I have been thinking whether to share this or not, but I feel like I'll have to eventually so here it is. Tl;dr I no die cause i play division instead

The Division has been my outlet to escape reality for the longest time. Around 1.2 in the first Division (whenever sticky grenades was the largest problem) I started playing. Also around this time, I had multiple injuries that cause me to quit the sport that I most enjoyed. Through surgeries and plates being put into my arm, I was told that I shouldn't return to the sport. A couple of people said this was the turning point for my mental issues but I am not too sure. I became prone to strong self doubts and anxiety in and out of school, but The Division is where I went to become someone else and through this, I met a friend. His gamertag was Snake DST (some may know him). He became the reason why I played the game. I used to watch his streams for hours, lurking and sometimes playing with him. Maybe around 1.6 when highend skull mc was the meta was when I was happiest because of him. I remember vividly the night when we went to play Dragon's Nest and the final room where we beat the incursion and the truck fell ontop of him, killing him before he could grab his loot. I still laugh about it to this day. This really pulled me though a dark time early on.

When rogue 2.0 came out, many of us started to play other games, as the Division 2 was right around the corner. I faced some irl problems that eventually lead to me being taken by some police and forced by the school I was attending to see a therapist. It was a difficult time to talk about and at the time, it felt like it should have been the end. Its hard to explain but I felt like I didn't belong almost, but the release of The Division 2 was a month away and in my mind, that was the only reason why I was living. It was like in The Division, I could save other players from being ganked and I had a purpose. It wasn't grand as curing cancer or serving in the military, but it is what kept me going.

I eventually was blessed with The Division 2 Alpha and played it on my pc, and oh boy was this my best day of my life. I hoped in with Snake and another friend and my mind was blown. It was everything I have ever wanted. A new world, a new story, a new set of characters. And I realized that I again had a reason to stay here. to play this damn game. So i preordered the game, steel book ultimate. I remember telling my student teacher at the time, (who was a major help for me through everything, so love you miss green) how excited I was to play this.

Release day, and I never played more of any game. I believed I beat it in like 2 days or something, (story, not black tusk), and I was super hyped the whole time. Come later, and I find out that I have been recovering very well through my mental issues and they have seen growth. I was not going to need medication and that the suicidal part of me was almost completely absent now. It was thought that because I had things to look forward to and an outlet to be me, I was able to recover relatively quickly. Right now, I am still playing and have been told that I won't be needing therapy for a while now! It has been a journey for me through these games, but I am glad it was here for me.