[2021] Don't think this game is for me <sighs>

I am guessing that game with health bars after all this years get you used to some behaviours that do not works in WT.

Try to stick to reserve tanks for a while. Maybe try to use machines with 20-30mm, usually they got fast turrets that are easy to operate and offers fast reload/cartridges, so 1st miss will not be an issue.

Hide behind heavier tanks, do not rush.

War Thunder is not the easiest game, but after you get used to everything, it should be much easier for you.