I cant take it anymore

This game is so deep, so confusing, so obscur and has so many mechanics to grasp. My brain hurts, I dread the next level up as I know I'm good for a 30mn dive into character building with a massive headache.

I need a break pleaaaase. I want to play a light-hearted, easy and friendly game just for a week. But I can't. I know if I take a break I wont have the strengh to come back, I can barely keep the bare minimum knowledge I'm building from a day to another. And the story is amazing and I want to finish it.

f*ck you Owlcat. And see you tomorrow.

EDIT : Damn didnt expect so many responses to my 2am exhausted rant lmao. Maybe I sounded too dramatic but that was not my point. Just to clear things up :

1. I dont find the game too difficult (difficulty just above normal, 4 out 7, so right in the middle). Fights are going great. I just find it very complex to understand, and I want to understand it otherwise what's the point. I want to do things right.

2. I dont want to auto-levelup or look out builds online as @VordovKolnir said. Same reason as above where is the challenge in that. If I did that I'd lose interest in RPGs altogether

3. So yeah I like the challenge and the do it myself feeling but this game is so so freaking deep it gives me ego issues. And Owlcat is making terrible job to ease that out. Tooltips are a mess and seem incomplete very often. Formulas are spread everywhere and not detailed with consistance. And some vital information are missing, example : when you have a debuff spell you know what kind it is (disease, malediction etc). But if you suffer from that spell there is no way to know which kind it is by hovering over the icon !! How do I choose the correct cure without knowing by heart every debuff spells in the game ? If you compare this game with Rogue trader it's night and day.

So yeah, I'm not complaining COMPLAINING. I'm here for the challenge but damn, does it come with a cost, and often not the good kind of cost.