Read moreThanks for your response. I disagree, but I see where you're coming from.
I genuinely wish I could not care. Like I've been called a faggot countless times, as have a lot of people online. But it hurts way, way more when you're queer, especially if they're saying it because you're queer. A couple weeks ago, a player searched my player name, found out I was trans, and spammed "tranny retard" in chat, telling me I'll never be a real woman, that I'm disgusting, etc.. Sometimes they can just tell from my voice.
I remember my mother explaining to me how my gay feelings were a sin back in seventh grade. I remember holding my breath every time conversion therapy was being voted on. I remember in church, the guest pastor (?) railing about how the degenerates and faggots like me are destroying the country, dropping the n bomb, etc.. These are deeply, deeply burned into my brain, and it is impossible for me to not think about them when I'm called that slur.
But this...
I honestly feel bad for what you had to go through.
There are primitive blunt people out there, and they will try to find all the stupid reasons to pick up on someone, they just search for a weak spot so they can feed on the misery of others. They need to do that because usually have some deeper problems of their own and this is their coping mechanism.
But please, don't go the way of searching hidden attacks in areas, that are unrelated.