That was sad to read, but thanks for sharing - I think it's important for us to remember that there's always someone on the other side of the screen. As an anecdote, I have terrible ladder anxiety. I always hated playing competitive games, and I hate even more letting my team down. When I started playing ranked in VALORANT, I always tried to hide and play super safe, not wanting to die first and 'throw' the round for my team. I'm glad to have a few great friends that offer positive encouragement, otherwise I'm not sure that I would have the gall to continue playing online versus games, truth be told. Every word of encouragement goes a long way, even if it feels cheesy. Thanks for trying to encourage the community to be better, I personally really appreciate it.